QuartzFire be here

Hey, I actually..

2005-03-09T01:47:23Z

Did something out of the house today, though go fig it wasn't anything major, I just went out and applied at Starbucks again, this being my third time, who knows, it may be my lucky one. yeah yeah the whole spheel on I have no GED or Diploma, well, I just need a nice job for now, so I can earn my own income and get insurance..as it is I am not on my fathers or my mothers. according to all that, I tecnically do not exhist at all ^^: isn;t that bizzare? anyway I am in need of health and dental, maybe I can get that..maybe not with starbucks, but at least I can save up money to store for later.

oh, I am not attending those classes anymore, but be it known I am not giving up, I am just going to search for another course of action, as it was, I was interfearing with my parents daily lives by requiring a ride from them, as it is I need to get my own license. but the main reason otehr than that is, that two days of english and only one of math, it only helped a little, well it helped. but I want to just focouse on math, and with how my mind works I need to utilize it everyday and ingradde it in this mind of mine and constaltny reveiw.. the class didn;t help, much less I need one on one, so I am on the hunt again, if anyone has any suggestions or knows of a program ect. please let me know! other than that I am on the hunt for new meathods.

anyway, me and my vanilla cream frappaccino are gonna take off for now.
later!

meggan_koff @ 2005-03-07T23:30:00

2005-03-08T07:30:42Z

http://www.livejournal.com/community/kageroumanga/56054.html?style=mine#cutid1
follow this^^

anyway..off to bed!!

stress is whats gonna kill me

2005-03-07T01:46:48Z

yes you heard me, right now my blood pressure is really high, and I am not really angry. I have five fucking little bastard kids over here, have been with me all day and all of last night. I had really cleaned the house yesterday, and waht does edith and dillan pull..invites three fucking kids over right after. the kitchen is a disaster, oh and the total times I have cleaned it has been 4 count em 4 times! I am fucking sick of it, the fucking upstairs looks like a hurricain went through it, the bathrooms are fuucked up and the play room has spills and fucking food crumbs everywhere...and I ahve to clean it all up bymyself again whne they leave. fucktastic people! meg is going to die an early death! I have an ever lovly headache, and at every turn I have little shits talking to me complaining getting into my things....and I get paid 20 bucks, forget the fucking money edith will ask for it later anyway! I just want a break, a long loong vacation..but oh..wait,, I cant because for some reason if I go every thing falls apart and is utter chas, and I STILL have to clean up THAT fucking mess.. no wonder no one wants to talk with me right now..I don;t blame you people....I am going to get asprin and go lie down if I can.. I am not having any kids after marrige hell, I am even skeptic on marrige now, oh what a joy it is to be me -_-;

WHEEEE!

2005-03-05T10:01:45Z

Is nobody listening..is no one around *peer*.... we got a cam now!...yeah, I installed it, and it was a pain in the ass to configure at first...they need better instructions, for they put too little on it, and when you actually go in to make sure it is installed porperly, you ahve to go to sections the instructions don;t tlel you about..waht fun...anyway, a fuming rant and hour later, i got it working, it was fun, though I am annoucning this here, for one, only my freinds can read this, and if anyone I don;t know reads, they don;t know who the hell I am anyway, muchless how to get ahold of me. unless they are the IRS..then again not even them, I am not wanted for anything..god am I tired

anyway, Laur was my tet buddy to see if it worked properly once I DID get it to behav and work, and she had a blast^^. but as I said, as soon as I got it to work, I had about..3 hours to myself before my step moms family got ahold of my on my YIM, and we all had a chat the kids and everybdy^^...and it ended oh...*looks at clock* five minutes ago from now..and this started at 9pm .. so now I am in my hyper overly tired state where I act all loopy..yeah..I am nuts..fear mah!! oh..yeah..we are doing this again tommarow..and probably everyday..so I have to be on earlier if I want to talk to my freinds decently^^;

anyway, I am off to bed..I am gonna be one hell of a grouch tommarow -_-;....coffe is thier only savior (family members)..so they had best feah meh!...okay..I am goin to bed NOW... for my evil bobble head clone of evil is showing up
FEAH MEH FEAH MEH
...either that..or I am just plain stupid......

...yup, just stupid
Night!!^^ *hugggles and kisses*

meggan_koff @ 2005-03-04T13:20:00

2005-03-04T21:32:59Z

who needs a subject anyway, I am a typo queen as it is.

Still gretting pop ups..and shit is loading itself into my computer...yay..
I swear, it used to be junk mail, now its shit getting into your computer *sigh*
anyway :WARNING RANT AHEAD!!

yeah I am ranting, my step mom pissed me off..again, but hey who gives a shit anyway hm?..well I don;t I just need to rant it sensless. she is gambling again, and guess what, I don;t have my $100 , or anything now, she took it from me and gambled it, and what, she gets mad at me for not giving her all of what I did get back and not all of my sisters? hello! WTF is the matter if you Give money and just take it back for you to fucking gamble it off..then get pissed atME!! hello shouldn;t it be viceversa!! so she is bitchy because she lost again, so first thing this morning I get woken up, she glares at me for a long time..
....."hi?"
she glared " hi" and curses at me in tagalog, just because I forgot to put away HER nailpolish remover that SHE used..WTF you hvae legs and feet, use em! don;t expect me to clean up after you! the kids are bad enough!...shit...
anyway thats off my chest. I am needing to buy undegarments again *sigh* stupid washer, its not satisfied with just socks anymore...

I found out I am an aunt..as far as my stepmother side, so tecnically I am not..but they consider me family and I..as far as they are concerned, am an aunt, which is fine by me^^ but a downsider is, I now have my cousine and I think another neice..rather unsure, but I have them on messanger now..and they want us to get a cam so they can see the family......

problem..its bad enough I have to share my computer with everyone, well, tahts not so bad, but now my computer time will be consumed with edith using it to talk to her family.....so much for me having any computer time at all -_-; sheesh.
don;t get me wrong, its good to see them..but the computer is my break away from..meh its just my time to relax...won;t be for long now.

anyway, we are going out again...better not get bitched at -_-; ah well, so much for that.
later

bluuurg!!!

2005-03-01T20:56:26Z

stupid sync firewall had to expire! and they wanted me to pay..they installed on my pc..no way I am updating...but now I have dating popups and stupid spam shit popping up whenever I am on the internet..DA mostly....T.T that sucks!

doing laundry currently..but thats fine..eating pizza while I am at it.
I am doing the usual thing meggie does...and you know I am in a good mood if I use that evil nickmname. but I find I don't mind it as much....so long as the horrible nicname of "megalita" stays away...makes my name sound like a margarita.. >_>; ..much less its lesser version, megalits...sounds like pork in my ears,, or beef ..*shakes head*
anyway, I figured out why I become a bit cold when talking with robert or having his visits...I feel there is something fake about him, and I don;t like it. he is 26, acts like he is 15...and..there is just something, I don;t know what, but at least I am aware of it now, thankfully he hasn;t called me in a while, saves me the trouble of trying to explain why I don;t want him calling..*sigh* he is a nice guy, but alarms go up, and thats never good for me.

I am craving to learn portugese, since I talk with laur everyday I have had a craving to, lol, I am always trying to do something, but its not to impress, I took french for a year...didn;t like it too much..and the instructor didn;t help either..but hey, I was warned -_-;..did I listen? obviously not, but for a while now I have wanted to visit Brazil since meeting her, it would be really awsome to, she sent me a clipping in the mail of waht thier flag was and I saw the language on the back and front of it, its pretty neat^^ I may be wrong, but I think its similar to spanish and french..Like I said, I can be wrong. but it looks and seems to sound pretty...just me up to things again.

anyway, My dad and I had a talk yesterday, it lifted alot of weight off my shoulders too, for one I was able to get alot of worries off my chest, and came to find how he felt about me doing art. He finds that I am good and should get a career in it, he even smiled at my character talonie when colored..thoug hhe recomended instead of a jet to try and draw a character in a BMW z-3. XD he has one, so it should be easy to do, especially since it has smooth lines, and not straight..and that he pointed out to me^-~ so it comes to show I inherited not only my mechanical skills from him, but art as well^^ ..I also realize I have more of my fathers attitude towards things, mellow untill prevoked...but I do shout like my mom if I get reeeallly stressed, which isn;t at all often anymore..its pretty cool^^.

We also talked about how I learned from not graduating, that regardless I tried, but didn;t put in my best effort, that is true, but he is proud that I am not giving up and trying to get the GED, he knows how hard it is for me, not having any freinds here to go to and being at the house most of the time, since work is so much harder fto find without a ged..much less highschool diploma, so he is very aware of how lonlie I am or tend to get, which is why I am an internet nut, for one I have the greatest friend in brazil I go to for a ything, be it stress, for laughs or someone to talk to, and this be Laur. my father even pointed out, that over seas freinds can be very good , for they know hardships and are not "spoiled" as he put it, so they are wiser in some ways. I agree, though I wouldn;t put it exactly in those words, Laur is just lovable and a very caring person as I am for her^^ for a short time we really bonded close together.

NOW KEEP IN MIND, that I am not reffering to her as my only good and best freind, I know I still have dominique, and I am expressin g this now because I feel it needs to be talked on when we get a chance because its important to keep our relationship healthy, be it far away.
we both have changed, she being in the AIR force and me a freelance artist who is striving to make a life. she has had hardships and trials that I never went through, so she has matured alot in so little time. me on the other hand, I have become more light hearted, rather loose than uptight and I don;t worry much at all, if anything procrastinate when I can, I have matured alot yes, but in different aspects than she has, I am very proud of her for what she has accomplished, no doubt about taht! but the thing is, we have changed to wehre there are parts of us taht we don;t really recognize, or at least thats how I feel. I still have a child within me, I always will from being an artist, I don;t know if she still has a little of a kid in her, and thats the thing, being apart and changing without changing together, can happen alot and make one another talk, treat or tolerate another differntly.
so my point is, I feel I am having a hard time sometimes, because I am still afraid of losing her, she really helped me change and grow here, and I am happy she ahs grown to, I am not blaming any one of us, but its something I have noticed. we used to talk about anything, being as random as hell and silly..not so much anymore, I am trying to find common ground other than RP or characters..for I want our freindship to be more than just play mates or rp buddies, it never was that way, and I don;t want it to start now...

well, I got that out in the open, and out of my chest. I hope I didn;t offend, but I just had to get that out, I have been stressing over it a bit.

well, this is as huge as it gets, so I'll let you go.

later!!

been a while

2005-02-28T09:13:23Z

yup, I am uploading, nothing big assured, just the same ol stuff, chores computer chat then go about drawing. I have been craving on going out, the weather has been so nice out, I might go for a job or at least go to a starbucks and relax.

anyway, I am too tired right now, turning into a night owl again, which is no biggie^^, anyway, to amuse those who..want to be amused..I sntached this quiz thing from mookie

1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (Name of first pet / Street you live on):
Spooker Revere

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (Name of your favorite snack food / Grandfather's first name):
Pocki Ray

3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: (First word you see on your left / Favorite restaurant):
Cherish Texas Buffet

4. EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS: (Favorite Spice / Last Foreign Vacation Spot):
Cinnamon Japan

5. SOCIALITE ALIAS: (Silliest Childhood Nickname / Town Where You First Partied):
Megalita vegas

6. "FLY GIRL/BOY" ALIAS (a la J. Lo): (First Initial / First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name):
M. Ko

7. ICON ALIAS: (Something Sweet Within Sight / Any Liquid in Your Kitchen):
Mentos spring water

8. DETECTIVE ALIAS: (Favorite Baby Animal / Where You Went to High School):
Kitten Mojave

9. BARFLY ALIAS: (Last Snack Food You Ate / Your Favorite Alcoholic Drink):
Ritz key lime martini

10. SOAP OPERA ALIAS: (Middle Name / Street Where You First Lived):
Elizabeth CozyCreek

11. ROCK STAR ALIAS: (Favorite Candy / Last Name Of Favorite Musician):
Twisler Benetar

12. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: ( First 2 letters of your first name and the first 3 Letters from your last name makes your first name. Take the first 2 letters of your mother's maiden name and the first 3 letters of the city you were born in):
Mekof Bawit

yayage and spiffs

2005-02-20T10:13:12Z

Well, we had a weird rain pour here, light drizzel to rampaging storem that could poke your eye out with one drop, then it stopped..really weird.
anyway we went to the BX today with my grandpa joining us...we were there untill 8 pm^^: I just roamed around talking to will, a somewhat deemed freind I would suppose..he has one hellova handshake on him thats for sure. well, overall we bought a scanner/fax/printer, socks..and my first charm braclet.. I had actually wanted an opal and 10k Gold braclet to go with my opal ring, but I found I didn;t have enough for it...that is okay^^ I can find another one next time^^..and I have my tablet^^ so all is well. However, this charm bracelet is one of a kind and unique, something I look for in anything... after all, I was going after sculpted dragons, insense and all that good stuff ^-~. but I would have missed it(the braclet) had my step -mom not pointed it out to me, it is 10k as well, the beads are actually 10k gold conceiled in medium beads of crystal, two round orbs and one a heart shape^^ very pretty. and mom got if for me to my surprise^^...though i really want to get things on my own.. I am..probably unlike others... I really feel babied when things are bought for me ^^;.. I am weird.

after that we went out to eat at the cannery 'Victory' the cannery casino and hotel is a local one, and its design is about pin ups of the 1950's or so, pretty cool^^ ...but I am sure I can do a better job at catfish fillets...no flavor in the meat, jsut bread crumbs and..fish... I would have at least added some garlic salt of just a bit of seasoning in it^^;.. and I had a virgin martini..unfortunatly dad wouldn;t let me have a real one this time lol^^..what can I say, once in a while is okay.he did let me have his key lime a few months ago..and I do not feel ashamed, its not like I am compulsive or anything haha^^

speaking of tablet I have been having a blast^^ grampa was especially impressed with my art and tablet..which I have nicnamed tabbie *shrug* I think its cute.

but wait, yet another surprise...after much clarifying over 701's and 702's in areacodes^^; I received a call from Amber, I was delighted.. lord I have not enough words..more or less that I can use properly haha^^ to express how excited and happy I was to finnally hear and..somewhat meet her^^ I had an absolutly enjoyable time^..and now I am writting on here...and soon about to pas out because despite the oreo's.. I am about to fall asleep where I sit, so please excuse the major typos lol^^
Dom, Kado dana an kimmy, love ya all!*hug* and I will give a call out tommarow, depending on if you all are buisy^^
night!

..

2005-02-19T09:36:40Z

been playing with my tabet, its 1:28 am here :d so far that I am enjoying it alot! I am especially having a much better time coloring in art, scanned or drawn on the table^^ go check out my da account, whic I will post later on in here. I enjoyed today, it rained, though I wasn;t as hyper as I become most of the time, I was actually pensive until lit let off a few hours later.. I am just imagining what weeds I have to pull. oh well.
comic..well for a practice run, I am doing this little think called Skat Kat ^^ its somewhat adorable, mainly focusing around trhee cats, my pet fish rouge and myself, its starting as roughe, though I might add in other 'human' chars later. but it mainly is about gag's that Skat kat, Cece and Puck will do on oen another..or me and rouge for that matter^^ speaking of rouge..he is getting old...I bet I would too if I was just stuck in a bowl/ tank all day...wait... I am..damn, oh well *shrug* so far everyone ahs a life, still trying to get mine, eell I will, its not ahrd, it sjust I abide by ruules alot...the good girl so to speak..but just you all wait muahahah^^. anyway Skat kat is going to be a skit featured on Deviantart until I can get my own site up and running.. something to do^^

I was lucky enough to catch Libra-In-Red today^^ really happy about that, I really like talking with her..once I open my mouth, or rather mind anyway^^ ..:D I'll leave what we talk about as random, I never know lol, but it mainly revolvs around fun, art and characters, and alot of other topics I am sure..its just my brain is dead right now from staying up this late I have no clue what else to remeber right now...maybe I am a gold fish at heart,,,ehh..

anyway I am getting my lil rear to bed.

YAAAAAY!...another redundant journal

2005-02-17T17:47:36Z

Yup, my tablet is coming today...it was actually here yesterday but when I was at class someone was out gambling again and napping...and I KNOW for a well fact that the guy had to use the door bell..because our screen door is locked *sigh* so I filled out that form that grants them permission to leave it at the door..now I am paranoid, for one..I don;t trust neighbors too much..their kids anyway.. well just to give a few reasons why they actually broke the van's windsheild when we had it, they broke my little brothers bike, but then again dillan doesn;t know how to take care of shit other than the PS2 so I guess it just saved him the trouble of wrecking it anyway. plus with how my dad was stupid, talking crap about them when they were in thier yard ( he in ours) .. I honestly can;t blame them too much for disliking them... I at least get remotly along, having slight chats and waving occasionally... I really think it a bad idea, unlike my parents here, to not make your neighbors enemies..so I am a bit worried they will pull something with my package, since it has my fathers name on it, not mine...*sigh* oh well, no sense in worrying about it.. I just hope edith will get it this time..

yet another rant of the usual-

I have been becoming more confused. I am in charge of cooking, cleaning and taking care of the kids.... despite what edith tells me to do..my mother feels she is abusing me as in ways of using me as a nanny while I quote " well, she had a nanny, so her mother never had to worry about it, so why not her kids? well because your her step daughter and she needs to stop fucking you over!"... and here edith is being kind and actually affectionate with me after...20 some odd years.. I really am caught in a hot spot, for I live with my dad and edith, so I have to abide by thier rules..after all.. my step dad kicked me out of his, since we didn;t get along very well..so where else could I go? .. it makes me realy sad to remeber all that. but it makes me wonder where the hell I do stand, am I a nanny? or am I a daughter?.. kind of messed up if you ask me..

yet anotehr rant-
I missed two days of school, almost yesterday that would make it my third...but it was not on my account, My mother (bilogical) is working, other family members are out of town..and what is Edith doing?..gambling and my father is at work ( who knows she is anyway) the first two days I missed for the same reasons as almost yesterday...she was gambling and didn;t want to leave..so she asked me to stay home, she hated to do it.. well if she hated it..why did she do it? is gambling that compulsive? I mean I myself actually disklike it and think it a waste of time..and alot of money.. but that is probably just me out the the very little few in Vegas that do think so *sigh*

but here is the thing.. I am about to be 20 Y.O in two months.. I don;t have a permit or license and I have to depend on these people..so whose fault is it really?... I want to say me, for it somewhat is, but on the other hand they wanted to help me and said they would..so they are going back on thier word...yeah.. ain't exactly loving the world I am in, the only ones supportive of me are my aunt and uncle and my Biological mom...probaly my blood relitives rather than..the inherited ones *sigh* this sucks...

anyway, I am starting to grow tired of playing nanny, or as the few others say, lessons I need to know once on my own and when I am maried...heh..makes me want to say " Hello!! I am slightly disliking guys as it is, and want some freedom before I even THINK about shit like that...." yeah..being stuck in the house obligated to others makes you really naiive and..seemingly stupid about outside matters..*sigh* and those are actually the lessons I need..how to protect mysdelf against others. because I trust WAY to easily... and here I am doing laundry and other shit.. I hate it -.-

anyway, gotta go, last day of class is today...if I get there that is -_-;

yeah..more whining and stuff

2005-02-16T19:26:32Z

.. I don't want to go to class today.. I reeeeeally don't, but I am anyway , its myt last week anyway.
well, my shoulder is hurting. so false alarm on the breast growth there..then again that was probably too much than you wanted to know anyway ^^;
well my mind is on comics... I probably will get my tablet soon, really soon I hope. But as far as where to put the comics... well I don;t have a place to, I have appliee for it at keenspace.com..but nope, been a month on waiting for that..oh well.. ^^ My good freind laur has told me she has been building a site for he *huggles laur* I absolutly adore her^^ as do I my best freinds as well, especialy a new found one^^..of which I hope she is better soon, a loss has come to pass with her I am afraid *huggles her* but all will be well.. I know my cat spooker is, despite me neve gettign to see him that one last time *sigh* but the time for my greiving has ended, just my ever love for him remains.

anyway enough on that..gha.. for some reason my stepmom wants our dog to remain outside untill ngiht time..turns out she is allergic to fur..ther goes my hope of getting a cat ^^;...and fish are just...fish..they have oersonalitiesyes..but I want to pet and play..*shrug*
well I better go, need to finish eating and what not, take care!^^

Valentinessday..is not...too bad

2005-02-14T20:10:55Z

I am still waiting for my Tablet..which was just a random gift..nothing really for a special occassion.. anyway..lately I have been harping about guys and how they have bugged me..well last night I was bugged again..just didn;t answer the phone..anyway I am in a good mood and relaxing sitting here sipping my hazelnut coffe. I am in a good mood, have no men around, but hey thats okay with the given mood I am with them. This mornign I went out with my dad...after he came in my room, of which when someone even moves the door I sit up immediatly..some strange habit I have..bascially a light sleeper, so beware. ANYWAY. he asked me to come with him to a jewlers place..so I am up, wearing a jacket over my pajamas (sweat pants and a shirt..not my usual lacy stuff) and flipflops while I help him find the ring my stepmom had wanted .. I was with her at the time. so as soon as I walked in the lady remebered me and therefore remebered the ring mom wanted, I did to..at least the square facuceted huge diamons..anyway we got it..she apparantly thought I was asleep and had yelled my name repeadedly..was funny to see her shock dumbfounded look when I came through the garage door >:) anyway, I told mom that we went out for gas..so dad could surprise her, and he did. I was on the phone with my real mom and she screamed in delight, which made me jump and my mom ask if there was a mouse....since when do we get mice in vegas? anyway, she is in a good mood, dad is in a good mood and he ordered his one of a kind rare model plane online...and I am waiting for my tablet..so over all a good day.. well, talk to you later..my fingers ar3 actually going numb ^^;

NOTE: Libra-in-red... I am scanning something today..definitly today.. I hope it cheers you some *huggles*

found something fun^^ I am

I am a A Flame Drake!

Hey, I took the http://dragonhame.com online Inner Dragon quiz and found out I am a Flame Drake on the inside.

In the war between good and evil, Flame Drakes take the side of the noble and good....
When it comes to the powers of Chaos vs. those of Law and Order, your inner dragon tends to do things by the book. ...
As far as magical tendancies, Your inner dragon has the ability to conquer the world of magic, but it will not be easy....
During combat situations, whether by spells or by claw, your inner dragon will do whatever it takes to get the job done....
The Flame Drake is an elemental dragon. It makes it's home in active volcanoes and is totally unaffected by heat or fire.'
Despite their imposing appearance, Flame Drakes are the guardians of good and make powerful and trustable allies. Their primary breath weapon is huge spray of molten lava.'
The Flame Drake, as it's name implies, appears as a towering, living flame in the form of a dragon. Flame Drakes also radiate high levels of heat, and have a tendency to make melt and burn things for a 20 foot radius about their body.
'
This Dragons favorite elements are: Flames, Lava, and Stamina

http://Dragonhame.Com

sqeee!!!!!!

2005-02-12T20:22:53Z

Yayness and all that jubilant stuff^^
Last night I became very frustrated and angry towards men, My ex was starting trouble and bothering my mohter stating that he" misses me" and that he is giving up on trying to make freinds, which is because I cut off all communication.. for one, when I separate from someone I move on entirely and do not contact them, in other words I just go on with my life and take care of myself, for I have nothing more for them right? right. Any way he was stressing me out because he is playing a game, and I am not up for playing blind mans guess on the truth of his intent. Anyway yet another male to be annoyed at..though its more my fault than his if I really think about it. Its Robert, yet again, when he calls I get irritable, for somereason he puts me of and I get easily frustrated with his conversation, I don;t know why! I think it is because I am not used to talking with men or being called for no reason, especially when I dislike talking on the phone with them, I preffer in person..not only that but he tends to dwell and repeat on the same things..for one I HATE being talked to in a condescending way...and I do not like my thoughts being repeated as if he was the one who said it..that is a big irker right there..anyway, enough on that.

My Dadand Step mom bought me a Tablet!! I am very surprised and excited about that^^ I was going to purchase it myself, but they wanted me to save my money and got it for me! ^^ I am very happy..the reason they did though, is for the fact that I RARELY ask for anything at all, just keep to myself and make due with what I have.. so.. I still have my hundred bucks ..and a gift*huggles* so that made me feel a little bit better last night. anyway, I haven't heard much from my freinds, they really must be truely buisy, but then I even need a break once in a while *hug* ah well, I hould probably call one of them and see hw they are.
later.

the many images of Aurie

2005-02-07T22:01:13Z

This is the second recent of aurie, my attempts for her redesighn when

she is older, not to happy with the weird thing I drew on her

shoulder.not done, but getting there

This

is a very old pic of aurie, she was 15 or so at this time^^ a cutie is

isn;t she? anyway, sorry its a bit blurry, I am going to try and rescan

the original when I get the chance^^

This

is a pic from last year, Kimmy went and colored it for me as a

surprise^^ I so loved it and felt special that someone would want to

color something of mine^^ anyway this is arandom colaberation, her

elder sister and her sisters lover of tragic end are featured in this

one^^ and I put aurie and T'mel in this as well^^ hehe.. I hope T'mel

looks a bit better in this lol, in my opinion he is good looking lol

This! this is my most recent of Aurie, and the lovely Libra_in_ red

colored her for me! I am very hapy and flattered, she did a lovely job,

hopefully I can return the favor with the char I am coloring for her^^

This is my original, you can see the date of when she was finished, but

this is before libra colored her^^ hehe a bit big, but I love her

alot!^^

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2005-02-07T21:37:59Z

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..um...hmm

2005-02-07T21:28:15Z

Well, a freind named Robert came over.. yeah.. the 26 year old guy I know, and wel.. as of late I have been hell of anoyed to talk to him.. I just don;t like talking to guys apparantly..unless I am interested.. umm.. yeah, well he is leaving to take care of something he did, not my buisness.. but he bought me an Inuyasha plushie for a valentines gift and a say of thanks... I liked the appreciation of thanks.. I don't like valentines day.. out of all the days.. why this one to show you love somebody? its like a universal anniversary.. and more poeple get in trouble because of this day.yeah, that is my opinion, its nice and all.. but..I still get bugged by it ^^; anyway, I think I will share the card he wrote.. I trust my freinds..but *sigh*..hell I just want to talk this out because the guy has feelings forme I DO NOT have for him, a good freind yes, but no Girlfreind!..sheesh.. I had a crush on him before yes, but that was before I got to know him more... now I know him more and I don;t like him like that...and he is still courting me!!..can you say aggrivation confusion much!!!? oh, back to the inuyasha doll, I appreciated it for a sign of a freindship, so don't think me a prude bitch, kay? ^^..is just valentines day that bugs me.. I want to know about St. Valentine and why the holiday's purpose..someone please fill me in on that.
anyway, back to the card, my freinds, let me know if you even want to know what its about or whatever.. I don;t want to spread it on the internet...at least here and I do not want to annoy you with unnessisary gossip..or news.. so yeah.. *sigh* I hate being confused.

oh..yeah.. That time of the month is here..any 0ther fellow guy freinds..be warned, I am not as cuddly around this time so I appologize ahead of time.

Libra_in_red is awsome!!! I had the best time Rping and talking with her^^.. lol I am weird yes, but I played aurie.. and in doing so I finally have an inkling to her background now^^ and I had an absolute blast, I hope you did too hon ^^ anyway.. I have some more pictures made out, I just need to scan them. one is a lovely Art Trade with none other than the lovely Libra_in_red of her character Mirage as is she doing my character Kefira!! um. I don't think I shared the pic she colored of aurie on here.. so I will do that^^... I want a template T^T *sniff* for those who do not know what it is, .. I.. bah I don't know how to describe it^^;
anyway, here is Arue, both original drawmn by myself and the one colored by Libra_in_red, I am still very thankful and honored to this day.. I am still coloring her char.. but I am tryng to ddo a good job with her^^

busts a move

2005-02-07T00:02:05Z

haha!! yeh Im' grooving :P so what, shania Twain always gets me in the mood haha^^ too bad its that time of the month * wince* ah hell who cares, its rare for a girl to be in a good mood on these days haha. Dominique is BACK! haha.. well she has been home for three days really, even though I am happy! yay and all that goodstuff! ^^ many share the same feeling as me as far as missing her and thanking God she returned home safe and sound , welcome home Hon!!!

Much has been going on, alot I have NOT been mentioning. but they don;t matter much, as far as the bad goes, but I am having fun with my math classes.. but lord is it fast paced, which I love^^ and I actually have fun with fractions lol,, division too, its not so hard, I just needed the basics and a helping hand^^ with these down everything else will be simple I am hoping.
Any who I have taken up to joining RPG's again, just two..well three if you include my own anyway, getting to wanting to write, though drawing my recent character is a must! I swear, I know I have more females then I know what to do with...actually I do, but this one is the best. though I am not having her appear in any of my IM concersations..antoerh form of rp, unless asked about her, as it is I flooded myself at one time lol, need to be careful of that. the songs that were playing once I thought her up, was sarah mclaughlins remix of" silence" been getting into alot of those ever since I downloaded limewire, now I can have music. anyway another was "Missing" by evanescence, from the CD Origin, thier first one I beleive.. ts really pretty, I see my darker characters to this, I'll post the lyrics.. you can tell this is gonna be a fun journal, I hope you guys see it as the same lol^^ but onto my newest character. let me tell you a bit about her.

she is of my own personal race I had built along time ago, but never had the skills to think though thuroughly. "Avarian"
is what they are called, a race of Bird people who are able to take forms of humans when nessissary, due to an anchient bondiung of he word once it was ccreated. anyway more on that later. her name is Keaira Falcao * a little accent mark supposed to go over the 'a' * basically she is of this high mountain race. she is a mercinary/ bounty hunter, which I have come to favor as of late, they are just so fun to play. she is areound 21 or so human wise, bird years.. uncertain really. but she is of falcon, the species I am trying to identify, anyway her hair takes on a reddish auburn brown, gradually galls into a dark brown to finally black with white tips. her hiar is a little past jaw length. her eyes are a bronze brown, slitted iris like falcons and birds of prey have, and around the iris and pupil is a ring of gold. she is light build and her eweapons are awsome, a gloved form of talons, metal, curved, lethal..anyway her personality is guarded, arrogant, reserved and private... I seem to like those characters aside from bad-ass lol^^

anyway as to that song, here are the lyrics, enjoy!.. I seem to like alot of dark stuff lately, lol^^

Please, please forgive me,                                                                        Please, please forgive me
But I won;t be home again.                                                                    but I won't be home again
someday you'll look out,                                                                         I know what you do to yourself
and, barely concious, you'll say to no one:           I breath deep and crie out:
Isn't someone missing?                           Isn't somethng missing?
                                                                                                                 Isn't someone missing me?
you won;t cry for my absence, I know
you forgot me long ago,                  even though I'd be sacrificed
I won;t be home again                                                                            you won;t try for me,not now
am I that unimportant                                                                           Though I'd die to know you love me
am I so insignificant                                                                              I'm all alone
Isn't something missing                                                                           Isn't someone missing me?
isn;t someone missing me?

Even though I'd be sacrificed                                                                and if I bleed, I'll bleed
you won't try for me, not now                                                               knowing you don;t care
Though I'd die to know you loved me,                                                  and if I sleep just to dream of you
I'm all alone
Isn;t someone missing me?                                                                     and wake without you there
                                                                                                                   Isn't something missing?
                                                                                                                   something missing..

...blah

2005-02-05T00:40:27Z

I swear on this day that I will have nothing to do with men the ages 18 below or 25 and above. 23 is the highest I am going. I DO NOT like men who are overly mushy, I DO NOT like overly sensitive men, and I ABSOLUTLY WILL NOT tolerate pricks, ass-holes.
what I am looking for is INDEPENDANT, HARD TO GET, INTELLIGENT AND FIERY GUYS..thanks very much.. now I hope that clears things up .. sheesh.. now don;t get me wrong, a little sensitivity is okay, but with my experiences I get annoyed and have come to despise it when its overly used, I do like compliments, but don;t SMOTHER me with them, it's sweet, but I preffer it when it really counts.. cuddly.. I do like that, but I want someone who can challange and intruige my mind, ME be attracted at first ..for some reason I work best that way. now enough on that.

I found the car or rather vehicle I want once I get my licese. its the JEEP Liberty, a really nice medium frost blue color^^ I like being on a higher level, not like a tall truck, but at least higher than a car, I feel safer in vehicles like that. and I am comfortable, not only that biut it is the oly vehicle I even considered owning^^ lol.
well I had best get going, have to cook dinner again
ciao! ^.~

LMFAO I didn;t expect that!!

2005-02-03T18:07:13Z

You scored as Severus Snape. Well you're a tricky one aren't you? Nobody quite has you figured out and you'd probably prefer it stayed that way. That said you are a formidable force by anyone's reckoning, but there is certainly more to you than a frosty exterior and a bitter temper.

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Severus Snape

65%

Albus Dumbledore

65%

Draco Malfoy

55%

Ginny Weasley

55%

Ron Weasley

55%

Hermione Granger

50%

Remus Lupin

45%

Sirius Black

40%

Harry Potter

35%

Lord Voldemort

Your Harry Potter Alter Ego Is...?
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who would have knwon I was him hahahahhah! not to mention he is one of my favorite characters in there lol..oh well, guess I do have a cold shoulder time to time hahha, yeah I am laughing my ass off, that is fucking hilariouse to people who know me, to get snape haha^^ go fig.
anyway I have eglish class again *Yawn*.. hope the day goes by really quickly today. anyway as of late I have had a curfew fo tuesday wendesday and thursday..due to classes..annoying,,yes.. but I do get more sleep than I normally do when not at school.

anyway, my art trade peice is done as far as drawing goes.. I just need to scan or color it before scanning.. I am getting a bit lazy with OC. so I might do a hand color and just touch it up ^^
. later everyone

Guess its the bad girl in me...

2005-02-03T05:27:52Z

well.. yet another facelift for my LJ.. not quite satisfied at all yet.. but we shall see. Today I let loose and was a little wild, nothing major , but enough to want to wear black formfitting bell out jeans and an off the shoulder sweater of burgundy red that showed off a bit of my features ^-~ I had fun too.. I hope to dress "sexy" a bit more often..must be the red and black, then again my inner bad girl crying out a bit lol... I really should have worn my hat haha^^

Today was great, Math class very productive, and I am proud of myself of how well I did, it was about fractions, fast paced to where when it got to estimating them, my brain just nodded off..but then when you learn to round the, reduce them, add them, divide and multyply them, plus find the ratio and common denominator... in anycase I enjoyed it^^ and I even aced alot f the homework too^^ very proud of myself I am.
the only thing though, is that I got irritated with how some of the students would get all fussy and complain. the teacher is nice and I feel she is thurough, plus she even makes mistakes, but guess what, the students catch it and say something about that. she made a mistake, hey! no one is perfect^^ I really like that sweet elderly teacher^^

my hair is getting longer.. the lower layer getting to between my shoulders while the otehr layers are still catching up^^ I am lovin it.

anyway, I am tired, and Meggie needs sleep..so goodnight...and yes even this good girl has a baddie in her ^.~

haha more stuff..and news

2005-02-02T04:20:36Z

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	mysterious
Your hugs are...	friendly
Your eyes...	burn into my heart
Your touch is...	heart warming
Your smell is...	amazing
Your smile is...	hypnotising
Your love is...	everlasting

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lol.. yeah I know, I do too much of these.. anyway.. my nes is short, so no worries^^ my second best freind Laur built me a website! its so cool and sweet of her *huggles the laur* I so love her, I can put up comics or art..prefferably comics^^. BUT, I am a proud new member of Studio Mael, no way am I gonna desert that either^^ this way I can promote Dana's site trhough mine^^ when she is finished, I'll send you the link! gotta go..making beef stew!

...sleeeeeepy

2005-01-30T08:36:55Z

okay. as of lately or as of yesterday..whatevver.. I have sucessfully cooked a goo dmeal, yesterday I did raostbeef with baked potatoes.. all from scratch. and a ver yummy and socicy homemade gravy I did by scratch. I'm very proud of it actually^^ I impressed dad and everybody, it was moist, tender..fully cooked.. but it was sodelicouse. my stepmom even ate more than she normally would of my cooking^^ and that was a real c ompliment^^... just wish I had more of it^^; I kinda got left with my favorite hard jerky like peices you sometimes get making roast beef^^ mmmmm...well I am sleeepy.. talks to ya tommarow.. * demonic grin*

fun quiz stuffs

2005-01-30T01:42:38Z

' size='1'>Fall</font></p></td><td>

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What Season Are You?
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You scored as Water. Water is the element that predominates in your life. Water rules the signs Cancer, Scorpio, and Pisces.

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Water

80%

Air

50%

Fire

40%

Earth

30%

Spirit

30%

Which of the Five Elements are you?
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You scored as Intrapersonal. You prefer your own inner world, you like to be alone, and you are aware of your own strengths, weaknesses, and feelings. You learn best by engaging in independent study projects rather than working on group projects. People like you include entrepreneurs, philosophers and psychologists.

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Intrapersonal

68%

Musical/Rhythmic

39%

Interpersonal

39%

Visual/Spatial

36%

Verbal/Linguistic

32%

Bodily/Kinesthetic

32%

Logical/Mathematical

18%

The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences
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You scored as 20-35. You are in your prime, but are feeling a little up-tight about life. Chill out!

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20-35

60%

Age 36-70 years

25%

Age 13-19 years

20%

Age 0-12 years

10%

Age 71+ years

How old is your SOUL?
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LOL! I just had to, I am a quiz nut.. plus bored and cooking dinner again *sigh* family freinds have returned.. I'll be on soon laur, don;t worry! lol^^

hhhaha.. I was bored

2005-01-29T07:39:39Z

yup, I am bored hahahah^^.. I need more coffee

The Great LiveJournal
Outage of 2005

During the outage I bought a smal Eastern European nation.

What did you do?

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Yay!

2005-01-28T21:59:13Z

Its raining!!! I love the rain, if no one can guess that lol^^
well today is no different, just relaxing and doing things here and there.
I have been using OC for.. I think a week now, thanks to Eino_hime and Laskisis XD they were gernerouse to let me have a copy of it. well.. I am learning fast, as does laskisis tell me as well.. but I am not satisfied with what I have done so far.. I know it takes practice and all.. but the mouse can only do so much.. plus my color scheming is a bit off.. I also find myself bored with doing it sometimes. which is Bizzare.

... I have one more thing to say.... RUGBY CALANDAR!!! hehehehe my mom of all people e-mailed that to me *GRIN GRIN* I so love it haha.. just wait till I get my own place and computer *grin* then I'll have to decide whic one goes on my pc...muahahaha I can;t stop grinning... I wanted to send it to Nique.. but I was kid of afraid someone ovelooking her shoulder or anything would get her in trouble..then again I doubt she has the time to.. I really should send out more e-mails *sigh* AND... I need to stop being so clingy abou t her as well, I adore her to death..and I alwasy will..but we will see ^^. I don;t want to suffocate her if I am.. it also leads to jealousy with me sometimes too..and I really don;t need that nore doesSHE ^^; at least in my opinion. but at least I am being open and honest with it.. especially since I adore the freinds I make who I know I can trust.

another thing.. a second communal house was built.. it was just on a whim, since the other one is full.. artists need a break. and authors too..*shrug* its up to everyone else^^ ... and I hope I didnlt offend.. for some reason as I read that part.. it sounds kinda..bossy and arrogant ^^: definetly not meant that way or intended ^^;

ITS RAINING! hahaha^^ I love it. another reason why I want to go and live in Portland Oregon. my next goal after the GED ^^ but I'll tell you more on that later^^..right now I need to tackel the bathrooms XP